Oh yes. Undernourishment does not make you “a bit more” obsessive. It totally makes you an obsessive nutcase. Really. Have you spent much time around animals? I have spent a lot of time around them for various reasons including working with animal shelters most recently. And I can observe this clearly in dogs, and horses, and rabbits. when underfed they are neurotic, unsocial, uncomfortable, frantic. But give them a sustained period of time with ample nourishment and rest and it DISAPPEARS. Those characteristics were NOT their natural personalities. They were symptoms.
You know you have to keep eating the normal meals consistently and increasing as you go before it becomes the new normal. YEs, of course it feels uncomfortable now. You’ve got to expect to be quite uncomfortable and accept it if you are going to get through it.
Ugh. Eating disorders are hell. Push through it. GEt better. LEt’s show the world that it’s possible to be a woman who isn’t a nutjob about weight, calories, and food. God, how refreshing are those precious few women you’ve ever met who just eat whatever the flip they want and never whine about being fat or whatever? What if we could all just be like that? Wouldn’t it be wonderful? THAT is the world I want to live in.