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  • in reply to: At what point does the weight gain STOP?? #12954
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    @ Kristi, I remember your reply. I’ll repost and see what comes of it. I pre-apologize for the length.

    Can I get too Fat? I’ve already been too fat. As a 36 yr old male who’s been above a 37 BMI, and a reader of 180 for less than 4 months, I’ve struggled to find similar stories to mine on 180. Maybe I haven’t found similar stories bc the vastness of the info on the site. Or maybe there aren’t a lot of stories like mine, dunno.

    My heaviest was 350 pounds in 2008. After witnessing my younger sisters weight loss, I was truly inspired to do the same. We?re mostly a heavy set family. W/ my new found inspiration I began to eat smaller portions, substituted all drinks with water and started walking nightly. Weight loss was easy then. I didn’t stop eating ?bad/junk? food, I just ate yummy foods in smaller amounts. Reached 280 pounds and plateaued. Stayed that weight for a few months before eating normally; then the weight came back with a vengeance. I couldn’t let that happen, so I joined a weight loss program w/ my bro. Upon completion of the program my weight was 250 pounds. Badass! Unfortunately, I was at least 30 pounds away from my ideal superhero weight. 220 pounds are Bruce Wayne’s and Clark Kent’s weight. That’s my superhero weight goal, corny I know, whatever.

    Juice fasts, vegetarianism, and finally low carb/anti candida diet were the diets I tried. While losing more weight something unexpected happened, I gained anxiety/panic attacks, OCD, all with a touch of depression. A clinic’s visit ended up with a diagnosis of labrynthitis, which caused vertigo in 2011, sometime after my first juice fast. Surely that’s just a correlation and not causation, right? Dunno…

    2012 passed uneventful, no weight loss, no diet, no ER visits. Took a year off from dieting; good year. However, 2013 would be the year I would finally hit my superhero weight! Plan of action: juice fast jump start and dive into a super low calorie, coupled with strength training, cardio, and even more H2O.

    Just three days into my juice fast, major headaches, vertigo type symptoms, stomachaches hit me like kryptonite affects Supes. Healing reactions? Retracing? Doc diagnosed me with OME. After hours researching books, studies, and some of the overwhelming info on the web, candida was self diagnosed… An anti-candida diet/strict ketogenic diet was the solution along w/ a mega dose of supplements. Or so I thought. Started feeling better, but only in pockets, two days here, three days there. I finally reached 225 pounds, pretty close!! yay! Almost there!! But the anxiety/panic attacks ruined my joy. Coupled with agoraphobia type symptoms, antisocial behavior (very unlike me), intrusive thoughts of all sorts. Funny how the more I pursued getting healthy, the worse I got. This was just bass ackwards.

    Read Eat for heat, Diet Recovery 2 and started refeeding slowly. I swore that my first piece of bread was going to kill me. It didn’t. My first slice of pizza would surely do it, the candida was going to love torturing me. Nothing. A bite of ice cream… Nada. I continued slowly over the first week, checking my low morning temps 95-96.2 consistently. None of my ?fear foods? were even giving me discomfort at all, infact I felt good that I could eat them again. Regulating my fluid intake is still a challenge, but I?v eaten with no fears and like a champ, eating whatever I crave and then some.

    Many people from what I’ve gathered have gained weight doing this, me too, and I’m ok with that. Well somewhat. I read about those who’ve gained and then it ?fell off?, that’s encouraging. However, I am not okay with gaining that entire hundred pounds back. Considering that while following Matt’s & YE’s advice, my anxiety/panic attacks have virtually disappeared, OCD and headaches are almost completely gone.

    Thank you sincerely for your work Matt; I never thought that yellowness or lack thereof, of my urine was so important, apparently it is.

    However, should I expect to gain all my weight back plus interest? Is it possible that I have a lower weight set point bc I forced the weight off? If so, maybe I won’t gain all the weight back. Has anyone else been as big as I was, refed, gained all their weight back and then it ?fell off?? Tapping is great tool which I use often and, I don’t mind being bigger, I’m already back at 280. Matt replied to Catie (on a thread which no longer exists on 180) saying ? really can’t imagine that you are far from peaking? Where’s my ?peak? point? I know that’s an impossible question to answer. But I’ll gladly trade anxiety/panic attacks with being bigger, but if I have to get back to 350 plus, well that’s too fat for me but maybe that’s my path, dunno.

    in reply to: At what point does the weight gain STOP?? #12948
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    I posted about my weight gain from refeeding. Apparently the “can I get too fat” post/forum no longer exists. Am I one of the only ones that started refeeding at 220 pounds? and almost up to 300 pounds? Almost six years ago I lost 100 pounds, from 350 to 250. In my frustration of not losing beyond the 250, I went extreme low carb and found my self anxious, depressed while getting down to 220. Again I ask am I the only one that reads and or posts that was already over 220 and once was 350? Last time I posted my story it was deleted, maybe that’s a clue.

    in reply to: Can I get TOO fat? #11397
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    @ saisrice, thank you for the reply. Yeah anxiety attacks suck big time, so glad to hear yours have subsided substantially. I hope I don’t gain all the weight back, that was also suck big time, but in a much different way compared to panic attacks. I find tapping helps, so I’ll keep doing it.

    @ sue, I appreciate your honesty. I’m not sure if you mean you gained all your hundred pounds or if you mean you gained all your weight back which is less than a hundred pounds. That’s not to say your weight loss and regained isn’t large. I find that those of us who got over 300 pounds aren’t in the same weight loss/regain category as the rest of the general population. But I could be wrong. I never feel lonely, my wifey has been with me for 19 years, through the thick, thicker, fat and then a little less thick. So I’m very lucky in that regard. But I know what you mean, it does feel isolating to not have anyone in person or online that relates to this magnitude of weight issue. Thank you again.

    in reply to: Can I get TOO fat? #10870
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    Can I get too Fat? I’ve already been too fat. As a 36 yr old male who’s been above a 37 BMI, and a reader of 180 for less than 2 months, I’ve struggled to find similar stories to mine on 180. Maybe I haven’t found similar stories bc the vastness of the info on the site. Or maybe there aren’t any stories like mine, dunno.

    My heaviest was 350 pounds in 2008. After witnessing my younger sisters weight loss, I was truly inspired to do the same. We?re mostly a heavy set family. W/ my new found inspiration I began to eat smaller portions, substituted all drinks with water and started walking nightly. Weight loss was easy then. I didn’t stop eating ?bad/junk? food, I just ate yummy foods in smaller amounts. Reached 280 pounds and plateaued. Stayed that weight for a few months before eating normally; then the weight came back w/ a vengeance. I couldn’t let that happen, so I joined a weight loss program w/ my bro. Upon completion of the program my weight was 250 pounds. Badass! Unfortunately, I was at least 30 pounds away from my ideal superhero weight. 220 pounds are Bruce Wayne’s and Clark Kent’s weight. That’s my superhero weight goal, corny I know, whatever.

    Juice fasts, vegetarianism, and finally low carb/anti candida diet were the diets I tried. While losing more weight something unexpected happened, I gained anxiety/panic attacks, OCD, all with a touch of depression. A clinic’s visit ended up with a diagnosis of labrynthitis, which caused vertigo in 2011, sometime after my first juice fast. Surely that’s just a correlation and not causation, right? Dunno…

    2012 passed uneventful, no weight loss, no diet, no ER visits. Took a year off from dieting; good year. However, 2013 would be the year I would finally hit my superhero weight! Plan of action: juice-fast jump-start and dive into a super low calorie diet, coupled with strength training, cardio, and even more H2O.

    Just three days into my juice fast, major headaches, vertigo type symptoms, stomachaches hit me like kryptonite affects Supes. Healing reactions? Retracing? Still dunno… Doc diagnosed me with OME. Not very satisfied w/ that quick diagnosis I spent hours researching books, studies, and some of the overwhelming info on the web, candida was self diagnosed… An anti-candida diet/strict ketogenic diet was the solution along w/ a mega dose of supplements. Or so I thought. Started feeling better, but only in pockets, two days here, three days there. I finally reached 225 pounds, pretty close!! yay! Almost there!! But the anxiety/panic attacks ruined my joy. Along with agoraphobia type symptoms, antisocial behavior (very unlike me), intrusive thoughts of all sorts. Funny how the more I pursued getting healthy, the worse I got. This was just bass ackwards.

    Read Eat for heat, Diet Recovery 2 and started refeeding slowly. I swore that my first piece of bread was going to kill me. It didn’t. My first slice of pizza would surely do it, the candida was going to love torturing me. Nothing. A bite of ice cream… Nada. I continued slowly over the first week, checking my morning temps 95-96.2 consistently. None of my ?fear foods? were even giving me discomfort at all. Regulating my fluid intake is still a challenge, but I’ve eaten with no fears and like a champ, eating whatever I crave and then some.

    Many people, from what I’ve gathered, have gained weight during recovery, same here and I’m slightly okay with that. I read about those who’ve gained and then it ?fell off?, that’s encouraging. However, I am not okay with gaining that entire hundred pounds back. Admittedly, I should note that following Matt’s & YE’s advice, my anxiety/panic attacks have virtually disappeared, OCD and headaches are almost completely gone.

    Thank you sincerely for your work Matt; I never thought that yellowness or lack thereof, of my urine was so important, apparently it is.

    However, should I expect to gain all my weight back plus interest? Is it possible that I have a lower weight set point bc I forced the weight off? If so, maybe I won’t gain all the weight back. Has anyone else been as big as I was, refed, gained all their weight back and then it or most of it ?fell off?? Tapping is great tool which I use often and, I don’t mind being bigger than superhero weight, I’m already back at 260. Matt replied to Catie saying ? really can’t imagine that you are far from peaking? Where’s my ?peak? point? I know that’s an impossible question to answer. But I’ll gladly trade anxiety/panic attacks with being bigger, but if I have to get back to 350 plus, well that’s too fat for me but maybe that’s my path, dunno.

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