MTizo

I think trying to speed up is unnecessary stress, at least it is for me! I have looked in the mirror and said – this is how my body will look for as long as it needs, to heal from all the damage I have imposed. I have began to exercise more, because I am having lots of fun doing it – some days for 1 hour, other 20 min, whatever I feel like!

Just think about how great it is to get energy from such a delicious process, called eating! Think about how wonderful it is to eat. I also associated food with thoughts of self-destruction and punishment and now I am thoroughly enjoying how it really feels to nourish my body with joy! Sorry if it is too Hippie for you, but works here :) Best of luck!

HAhaha Matt…I’ll bite. I know I should not complain, it is just that I am very petite and shy, and this beast has a 105cm circumference, that gets too much attention and doesn’t fit any store bought dress :P

I am really glad I am maintaining weight, though, and eating all I want. Life just flows much better!

Now I am busting my ass and the rest of me with Kettlebells and medballs. A lot more fun than lowcarbing!!

I am not too sure how far up the mountain I am, but just thought I’d give my own input. (Apologies if too long and if language too lame – not a native English speaker).

I am a 5`2 female, currently 131 pounds.

My story goes a little like this:

Child ballerina, always on the skinny side. Started gaining at 14 and freaked out – started following Weight Watchers with no success. Quit ballet at 16, instantly gained 16 pounds. Started taking amphetamines, laxatives, Reductil in cicles which lasted until I was 20 (with kidney stones and labyrinth problems in between). Thats when I discovered vegetarianism and macrobiotic - vegetarianism lasted 12 years. After that, did many versions of vegetarian, including whole foods, calorie restriction, 2 years low-carb, few months vegan, few months raw vegan, until I found Paleo. Started eating meat again, felt great initially, decided to go low carb, felt like shit (1 year with 0 period and 100000x bitchiness). Added back the carbs for about 4 months but nothing improved (was 110 pounds by then, always shivering cold, constipated and miserable - I will never forget thinking about a meat roast during sex, that was a real low point). Then one day my mind just shut down and I went through 1L ice cream and a whole french baguette drowning in olive oil, just couldnt stop till I was physically sick. My period was back the very next day and has been clockwork ever since. Gained a bunch of weight and found this site shortly after, when I decided to give Matt`s protocol a try.

Fast forward to today…It has been about 5 months since I have been eating lots of every damn thing I want. Including store bought cookies, Nutella, bread, pizza, EVERYTHING I want. Sometimes I have ice cream for breakfast and as a snack 3 other times during the day. I still eat tons of natural stuff, but I eat all the crap food I want as well and refuse to call it crap.

Well, in the beginning I shot up to 140 pounds, at a point gaining 2 pounds per week!

I started eating even more, and I felt I was still gaining a lot, because my love handles are spilling out much more off my clothes. Today, though, I weighed my self at the gym and saw I am 131 pounds.

I still get scared because my cellulite shows even more, but I am confident the crap phase will pass, my workouts will continue to improve and veeery slowly I will attain a more balanced look, but I will never EVER sacrifice my mental and physical well-being for any skewed ideal standard EVER again.

Thanks to Matt, his blog companions and this forum for helping me make this possible, one day at a time. :)