Thanks, all, for the feedback. Part of me does believe that undernourishment is making me a bit more obsessive than usual. Tennosea, I didn’t think your post was condescending in the least. I have fallen so far down the hole of disordered thinking that it’s hard for me to tell what’s real anymore… when BauerPower noted that my post was “filled with paranoia” that really struck a chord and is truly what’s going on. Glutwin- I feel for you and will be sending good thoughts your way. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
I guess one of my problems now is that I literally don’t know what normal meals look like, and when I DO eat a “normal meal” (estimated by what another person eats), I feel so uncomfortable :( I’m hoping that feeling will pass? It’s like my body can’t handle much food anymore.
